Canvas or Paper and the Feeling of Anxiety
In the world of creativity, the desire to paint or draw is often accompanied by an exciting shopping list: canvas, paper, brushes, colors, pencils, and all the other essential materials for the “great creation.” With each purchase, it seems that everything aligns perfectly, and inspiration abounds. You arrange them meticulously, sit in front of the easel or at the table, take the pencil in hand, and… nothing. However, at that moment, a strange feeling of anxiety sets in.
The story always begins with the question, “What if it doesn’t turn out well? What if I ruin these wonderful materials? What will others say when they see the result?” On one hand, it’s okay to feel this anxiety. It’s something you’ve dreamed about for a long time, and these materials represent a significant investment. You want the result to be something you can be proud of. However, as you mentioned, this anxiety can block the creative flow.
The solution lies in a simple yet powerful approach: changing the surface you’re working on. Replace the precious canvas with something simple, perhaps ordinary paper or even packaging paper. This simple act frees you from the pressure of costly materials, allowing you to feel liberated and detached from the fear of ruining them.
However, the key lies in the tool you choose to work with. It’s like a magic key that opens the door to the unique pleasure of creating. Imagine it as the joy of a child savoring an ice cream. The moment when the pencil or brush touches the surface of the paper or canvas should be an act of joy and discovery, not a tense exercise where you think about consequences.
Whenever you feel that anxiety creeping in, take that tool and start “scribbling” on a piece of paper, without thinking about anything. Allowing the pleasure of drawing to follow its course, you’ll see lines beginning to appear, some thicker, others thinner, and eventually, “inspiration” arrives.
The special paper you bought shouldn’t be viewed as a loss. It becomes a useful tool after you’ve created 10 or maybe 100 drawings or scribbles on other sheets, where you’ve released all the anxiety related to the fear of failure.
From that moment, you can truly consider yourself a creator. What you do next will be free from constraints, authentic, and will reflect your creative essence.
If you enjoyed this experience and found yourself in this story, I encourage you to share your thoughts here. You can post a comment or even provide a link to what you’ve managed to create.
Thank you for taking the time to read this narrative, and I wish you to explore your creativity with confidence and joy!