“I had an artistic whim”, that’s how I could say about what happened. I bought 15 canvases, I allowed myself to do whatever I felt like, without thinking about whether I would ruin the materials. There are many experiences condensed into this phrase, but you know that feeling when you’ve got materials for something and you want to start using them, making that something, and you get stuck, because “it has to come out well”? Well, I’m kind of tired of it. I said that if I’m going to do it, at least I’ll do something real and have total freedom.
To make the “whim” complete, I also built myself a super tool – a paintbrush that I made a very long handle with some long bristles at the end, even too long for any normal paintbrush. I didn’t make it for any complicated artistic reasons, but out of a simple necessity. I had worked on projects that were part of some office layouts where I had to draw on large dimensions of 3m x 10m, entire walls and I also saw the master Matisse how he drew with a stick with a charcoal stick attached to the end to be able to work from a distance, I did the same and it was good. Now I took the idea further and made an equally long brush that gave me the freedom to see the work from a distance and at the same time allow me to create brush strokes as freely as possible, the end of the brush was made with the idea of holding as much paint as possible like the brushes used in Japanese writing, and which allowed me to create these vibrating lines that seemed to dance.
After several attempts on paper I understood that acrylic paint must be diluted in such a way that it works like an ink and so I started to “dance”. The feeling was that I didn’t have absolute control over the movements, there was something from within, natural and natural that was released, without passing through the filter of the mind that always vigilantly warned you about every “artistic mistake”. The lines met and parted on the canvas as in a silent dance enveloped by music that only the body hears.
What is fascinating is that this OBJECT of mine is about exactly this difference – between what happens inside me when I create and what people see when they look at the result. I know about that fear of not damaging the canvas, about the tension given at the moment when I decided to do this whim and take 15 canvases at once, but I managed not to let them lead. The world sees 15 meters of beautifully exhibited painting, a monumental frieze that decorates a large wall, I see that I had the courage to be me.
I think we all have such an OBJECT – that something that is deeply ours, that exists on the border between what we feel and what others see. For me it is this line dance born from an artistic whim, for someone else that whim may be something completely different. The important thing is to allow yourself to let it exist, not to suffocate it with too many explanations or with the fear of making a mistake.
My OBJECT is about the freedom to create from the inside out, without thinking about whether it is good or not. It is about the courage to make a whim and transform it into 15 meters of dance on the canvas.
If you want to discover more about my “OBJECT” I leave you here the link to the project page where you can find some videos, photos and a catalog in more formations about processes, thoughts – not to explain them, but to let others see how this “fad” became the “OBJECT” that cannot be explained, is … encountered
